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i dont know what to do

i havent updated this in awhile and so i decided to post today. life at home has not been that good. i still have not really did anything interesting. i dont start school for like another two weeks. im still looking for a job. i just cant wait until everything gets going. i hate sitting around waiting for something to happen. i havent really been looking for a girlfriend, because i been babysitting my sister kids and they are a handful. i would like to have someone that i can talk to and just chill with. i been thinking of missy alot lately. i think she has a new boyfriend and for some reason it is eating me up inside. we are not together or anything, we havent even really talked but it still bothers me to know that she is with someone else. i dont know what to do?

HOME!!!!

So Ive been home for about a week now. things have been a little rocky. I have almost lost my temper quite a few times. i guess i just need more time to get readjusted to family life. my brother seems more annoying then ever. my niece and nephews seems like all they do is cry all day. i just have not had the patience to deal with everything. i actually caught the bus and went for a hour ride just to get out and hang out with military people. it seems like it was easier to connect with them.

well since Ive been home i have not talk to missy or charlene. i don't know if i want to. i want to give it time to see if ill still feel the same way in about a month or so. missy was actually right around the corner from my house the other day but walk all the way around just so she would not pass my house. i thought about going around to talk to her but if she wanted to talk she wouldn't have took the long route, right? i don't know what to do yet, so im just not going to do anything. im just going to stay focused on my family life and getting into the school that i applied for.

What quality of yours would you like to pass to your kids?

If i had a little boy I would like to pass on my respect for woman. If my father taught me anything in life, it is how to treat a lady. There is too many guys out here that disrespect woman way too often. There is no reason that a man should ever touch a woman to cause harm. Men, we are suppose to protect our woman not beat them. I'm sorry for the long answer but I feel very strongly about this. If I could only teach my son one thing, it would be to treat woman with the utmost respect like they deserve to be treated
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The Airport

This was not a bad week at home. Right now I am stuck at the airport trying to get back to N.C. It was crazy trying to get here. My brother and I caught a bus but got off at the wrong spot so we had to figure out a way to get to the airport. We ended up running across the highway, climbing this massive hill, jumping over a fence and walking across a bridge only to find out that I missed my flight by one minute. So I got a ticket for the next flight and it is not until 7am. Now we are just stranded at the airport for 4 more hours. My brother is asleep right now, we are taking shifts sleeping and watching the bags. Well thats all for now.

Going Home

Okay, so I'm going home tomorrow for nine days. I have no idea what I am going to do while I am home. Usually I spend all my time with Missy. I got to get some things together so that when I finally go home for good I can have everything straightened out. I got to go to traffic court and put a payment on my tickets so I can get my license. I am going to go to CHI and see what I have to do to get enrolled in their electrician courses. And thats about it. I can do all that in two days. I could call Charlene and chill with her for a little, but I don't know. I need to find some stuff to keep me busy while I'm home. I am going try to not contact Missy while I'm home. I don't think its good for me to keep thinking about her but I cant help it. At least I gave up on trying to talk to her. That only made me more upset every time I tried. I'm thinking about getting a tattoo. I think I'm going to get my last name across my back. I think thats a good idea, I might get it while I'm home.